Those words in my head.

Trace your path and keep counting down

I am the ghost in your shadow

silently and slowly suicide

in the endless darkness

Start from scratch and then dump it furiously

I felt better when the rest of myself was numb with 

freezing vacuum from where you stood

too far from you to sustain my breath

waiting, just keep waiting

then realize that you had never cared for

damn myself for all the things I have done

a synonym of desperately foolish

I may need some SSRI to keep myself happier

anhedonia is all around me

no power and no enthusiasm

it would drown me into the empty sleep

no one can help me but myself

and that one is going to die in her own tears